lively n me

dunno really what to say for once..or how to begin..
for some who had not had much to do with vr before
the experience of lively was so liberating ...n
the sudden "END'
we were boonswoggled n sidesmacked with a 2 x 4...

still trying to process it.

i had lost my 'heart', but didn't know it.
''oh, growing up, how nice..no more joy/tears/dancing/laughter/up till dawn...what a relief''

then suddenly finding one's 'heart' again, so unexpectedly....
it's not just the joy, but the sorrows as well
the shyness/disappointments/missed opportunities/'if only's''

and, besides all that ...it was a family, of many different ages....i miss them all.

so in going around now in 'rl'...
i see a kid or older person and instead of being impatient...
i think ''oh, that could be my friend one day grown old, or her/his child...''
and what does it cost to be kind anyway?

i can leave when i do...a more fragrant world, for those who come after....
simply because,
i learned to 'love' again
in lively.

belavar.